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from Jesus:
My beloved brother, you
are simply describing a process that most souls go through as they reach
the higher levels of the spiritual path. There comes a point where the
soul begins to realize that it longs for more than the pleasures of
this world. The soul truly begins to see the reality behind the following
statements from the Bible:
Vanity of vanities,
saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all is vanity. (Eccelsiastes
1:2)
I have seen all the works that are done under the sun; and,
behold, all is vanity and vexation of spirit. (Eccelsiastes
1:14)
I said in mine heart, Go to now, I will prove thee with mirth, therefore
enjoy pleasure: and, behold, this also is vanity. (Eccelsiastes
2:1)
Then I looked on all the works that my hands had wrought,
and on the labor that I had labored to do: and, behold, all was vanity
and vexation of spirit, and there was no profit under the sun.
(Eccelsiastes 2:11)
Then said I in my heart, As it happeneth to the fool, so it
happeneth even to me; and why was I then more wise? Then I said in
my heart, that this also is vanity. (Eccelsiastes 2:15)
Therefore I hated life; because the work that is wrought under
the sun is grievous unto me: for all is vanity and vexation of spirit.
(Eccelsiastes 2:17)
This is a state of consciousness
that I described in the following statement:
If any man come
to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children,
and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be
my disciple. (Luke 14:26)
As you ascend the spiritual
path, the soul inevitably reaches the point of no return when it realizes
that it can no longer live as an ordinary human being who is absorbed
in the pleasures and the pains of the world. It wants to leave behind
this world, but the underlying drive behind this feeling is that the
soul wants to leave behind the lower consciousness of the carnal mind.
It is this consciousness that makes everything in this world seem like
vanity. And truly, as long as a person is trapped in the carnal mind,
everything is vanity.
Therefore, there comes a point on the spiritual path when the soul begins
to “hate” those parts of its life that are based on the
carnal mind, and it is at that point that the soul can truly reach for
the Christ consciousness. As I said, the soul cannot serve two masters,
so until it decides that it wants to leave behind the carnal mind, it
cannot be a true disciple of the Christ consciousness.
This state of consciousness is very common among souls who have embodied
on the Earth for a long time. They look upon the various activities
that are available on this planet, and their soul reaction is “Been
there, done that.” They feel they have nothing more they want
to do on this planet, and they long to move on out of the limitations
that are inevitable in this world.
I can understand why many people feel this way because I went through
this process myself 2,000 years ago. You will know that between my appearance
in the Temple at the age of 12 and my appearance at the marriage in
Cana, the New Testament says nothing about where I was and what I did.
During those 17 "lost" years I did indeed go through a period
of severe depression in which I battled the very consciousness you are
describing.
What helped me escape this state of soul depression, and what has helped
every other soul who has faced this problem, is that I eventually came
to a point where I realized that even though there was nothing I personally
wanted to do on this planet, there was much I could do for others. I
could also help God bring his kingdom to Earth.
You see my friend, as I described in another discourse,
there comes a point where a soul can no longer learn unless it starts
teaching others. As Mother Mary explains in her magnificent discourse,
a soul can reach a point from where the only way to go further is to
become the servant of all.
When a soul first descends to Earth, that soul has a very self-centered
task. It is the task of the soul to gather experiences and build a strong
and firm sense of identity. In other words, the soul needs to be focused
on itself, the soul needs to be self-centered, in order to build a firm
sense of identity. There are indeed many souls on Earth who are fully
absorbed in this task, and although they might seem self-centered or
selfish, they are actually doing what they need to be doing, given their
present stage of spiritual development.
Yet as a soul continues to grow, there comes a point where it has built
a firm foundation, a firm sense of identity. One might say that the
soul has filled in the matrix of the soul, and it is now firmly anchored
in its sense of identity. At that point, the soul really has no way
to grow by continuing to focus on itself. Therefore, the soul can go
in one of two directions.
- If the soul continues
to focus on itself, it will inevitably sink into a sense of hopelessness,
despair, a sense of having no purpose or meaning, and this will inevitably
lead to depression. Many people, especially in the New Age field,
have reached this point and they enter a seemingly endless spiral
of a self-centered quest for the ultimate spiritual experience, causing
them to continually take classes or engage in psychological healing.
Yet despite all their efforts, they never experience personal fulfillment,
and the reason is that they seek it in a self-centered way instead
of going beyond the human self to the divine self—which is one
with all life and therefore finds fulfillment in helping others.
- The other option is that
the soul can transcend its limited sense of self and realize that
no soul is an island. When you have built a strong sense of who you
are as an individual soul, the next logical step is to build on that
foundation and develop a strong sense of who you are in connection
to God and in connection to the world in which you live. At that point,
you can reach for the Christ consciousness, which eventually makes
you see that God is in everything that was ever created. This gives
you a strong sense of connection to other people and to the Earth
Mother.
It was precisely this growing
sense of compassion that allowed me to personally escape the sense of
having no purpose, the sense of depression. It was the sense of compassion
that caused me to return to Israel and take on the role of being the
representative of the Living Christ on Earth. It was the sense of compassion
that made me willing to go all the way and even give my life for the
cause of awakening humankind to the reality of the Christ consciousness.
My beloved friend, you - and many other souls like you - have come to
a crossroads in the evolution of your soul. You can continue in your
present state of self-centeredness and hopelessness, or you can do some
serious soul-searching and discover the point inside yourself where
you made the decision that prevents you from going further. Once you
discover that decision, you can replace it with the decision to reach
for the Christ consciousness, to reach beyond your limited sense of
self, your limited sense of identity, and see yourself as part of a
larger whole.
If you will sincerely engage in this process, you can very quickly go
through a complete turnaround in your life, and you will attain a very
strong sense of compassion and purpose. You can then become one of the
Christed beings that I talk about in the following discourse.
You can play your part in bringing God’s kingdom to Earth and
raising humankind to a higher level of consciousness. My friend, is
that not of worthy purpose?
Just look at how many people on this planet are spiritually impoverished
and need those who can guide them without forcing them to enter a particular
outer religion. If that doesn't motivate you, then look at how many
physical problems are waiting to be solved. There is no shortage of
good causes that can engage you in the process of helping others, and
I can assure you that working for a greater cause and helping others
is the fastest - and often the only - cure for depression.
Please make the effort to find that point in your soul where you have
a very strong love for God's purpose. Then allow that love to consume
all sense of meaninglessness. Allow that love to awaken you to who you
truly are and why you chose to come to Earth at this crucial hour. Allow
that love to burn away all the dross of self-centeredness and depression
that prevents you from being who you are.
I have need of you and people like you. People who feel they have done
everything there is to do on this planet and are willing to set aside
the pleasures of this world to work for a greater cause.
I have need of you. God has need of you. The planet has need of you.
Other people have need of you. And you have a need to overcome your
self-centeredness and help yourself move on by helping others. My friend,
do you need any more motivation than that? Now let us be about our Father’s
business!
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